The end.

last night i was told i needed to file the paper work.

I lost, i lost our love our future and past i lost it all.

I hope this will be for the best

counting

counting for a big date?

or the end?

or being alone?

why count?

why not let it come naturally and not as expectedly

4 months 4 days 12 hours 23 seconds

and 1 heart break !!

do you miss me like i miss you?

i cant stop writing spelling thinking and cursing you!!
but is it all good or bad?

Saying goodbye.

It seems like an easy task when your done with a conversation, "Goodbye, take care, so long.". but its not. Trying saying it to someone you really care about "Goo....." it hurts. you can never really say it or mean it. Wish one day i cant let go and say thoughts words to protect and not hurt anymore.


chi.

A path.

Today at work i seen a man with the cutest baby girl and thought wow he is a true man being there for his kid. But i noticed that he was a dick and didnt want to help or deal with him. Later walking around i heard that he was arguing with the girls mother, why is it that adults never look to the kids best interests? Now i understand why he was aka a DICK but still his daughter will pay in the end, and i felt bad i coulda been him. I never want to have my child grow up in those conditions just cuz the parents couldnt grow up and see what was more important. But people just like to live like that and chose that way.

chi

Follow the Leader

How can i tell you to stop how can i stop?
You tell me, you cant win the race without.
But your the one who started without me.
I cant continue running if your always going to be this way.
You told me, you could win without.
now you need me?
Make up your mind threats dont work.
How can we win this together when you always had your mind set?
You run ill walk, cuz i know ill get there.

chi.

Trust

I cant see what i did wrong i cant see you in the same way or in the same tone.
Tell me how i can get back get our life back. but do i really want to?
I cant sit here and think of you cuz i all i see is the bad of what i did,
and what you did. I know i fucked up bad and it kills me all the time but
i need to move on. I cant stay here knowing you hurt me cuz you did and it
suck, when we said i do it ment through thick and thin. But yet when we were down
we both gave up.
Im sorry but i cant trust you know you put yourself in danger and thought
nothing.
Thought it would be ok to drink and do what you did, half the time you didnt even
know what you were doing.
Im sorry for pushing you away but i didnt push you in their arms.
so i say I CANT TRUST.



chi